I am tired.I just want to be left alone in my room. I want to smoke, because I want to, and drink because I like it. I dont want my little brother barging in my room. I dont care if he needs attention. He needs to suck it up, I'll be gone soon enough, then what will he do? I want some perfect girl to find me and demand I be her roommate. And I'll have no choice but to agree. Then we will talk everyday via AIM and in the summer we will meet for the first time at the flags and becom instant lifers. I want my mom to get rid of all her [stuff](I'm trying not to swear) So my house doesnt look like a storage facility. I want to get my septum pierced, because I want to, I really don't care what people think about it either. I want to see my friends more often. I want the wireless to not suck right now while Im trying to write this. I want a car. I want to be invisble. I want my grandma to spoil me not lecture me. I want to see holleigh. She actually deals with my lack of enthusiasm. And fights for our friendship. I want to, want to care. I want Josh to grow up. I want to see my brothers. I want high school to be over. I want warm weather. I want to hang out with Britany and Amanda. I want to wake up with Dominic laying on me watching cartoons. I want my mom to see me like everyone else's mom sees me. I want to go to sleep for a few days. I want. I want. I want. So selfish. So greedy. So controlled. So pathetic. So Jessica.

Tags: rant
where im at:: my room
how im feeling:: apathetic
what im cranking:: xerocide- emanuel