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ok. first and foremost, i am an adult just cause i go grocery and movie shopping with my mom still, doesnt make it ok for people to ask her permission when i go to buy an R rated movie, or spray paint and as much as i hate getting carded, i dont  mind it over people asking my "mommy" if "its ok"
for instance: when im introducing caribou coffee to my mom, and i put in my order separately as in im going to pay for it with my big girl money that i made all by my freaking self and the guy asks (and im thinking hes talking to me) my mom caff or decaff, and im like "caff fo sho" and hes like "?" and then im like "did you not hear me?" and my mom  is like "oh go ahead, shes old enough." hell yeah im old enough...


ok so  now that i got my point and rant out of the way....

i am going to get pierced. my septum to be exact. and i really dont care what your opinion is about this fact. i am going to get pierces and that is that...

so i've wanted this piercing since i first met some who had it done, she was freaking adorable and i dont know how but the piercing just accented her face, like you wouldnt think "oh that's not normal" upon looking at her. and i was in awe. so when people especially my friends tell me its ugly i shrug it off like sure, and "you know what YOU are talking about" some people wear it quite beautifully. take Scarlet Johanson or Hayley Williams for example.

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i researched the hell out of this, i mean have you met me? jess and spontaneity will more likely never go together, at least when im in the drivers seat.  i could probably do the piercing myself if i wasnt so NOT keen on self inflicted pain.

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i got it done for one day, i gave in and let my friend do it. it hurt so i wasnt able to flip it up and my mom saw it and that was the tale of my one day piercing.

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as i said before when someone can pull this piercing off it looks gorgeous. and not many people can.... i wanna see if i can. i mean not many people(GIRLS) can pull off wearing hats and i can. so im kinda looking forward to it in that aspect.

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ok ok ok relax, this piercing REALLY IS the best of both worlds you can rock it for every day bad ass sessions,such as: hanging out with the homies, skateboarding, rocking out ect.  and hide it for everyday non bad ass things such as visiting my grandma, work, home......


next> the main reason for wanting this done, i just wanna have the story to tell, the not so obvious thing about myself... im going to be in that "not so bad ass" category more often than not, so im NOT really getting it for show. its completely a personal achievement on my part.


SOOOOOO PLEASE shut the hell up. I AM GETTING THIS DONE> and i know i'm NOT going to regret it. not even if i get older than dirt [shiverrrrrrrrRs)

where im at:: my bed
how im feeling:: artistic
what im cranking:: Have Faith In me- A day to Remember

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say:

dear you,
i actually like talking  to you. and i like texting you even more. and thats saying something i dont just have text convos with just anyone.
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only reason i like the twilight books is because of one single character. bella is like no other character i can think of. the way she thinks is fascinating. completely selfless to the point that its selfish. like a huge circle she tries to take away peopls pain at the same time shes causing it. she rathr sacrifice herself than let someone die protecting her,but she is the reason that somone has to protect her. that why shes so relateable to every person who reads her point of view. for someon like me reading about bella and how she feels makes me feel bettet about the way i feel about myself and others.
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update

halloween turned out AMAZING i got completely drunk of course, its weird not having a tolerance anymore. i ended up going to shawns party completely last min, thats why if you see the pics on FB im the only one not wearing a costume, although i did try to convince people i was a comic book cause i was wearing DC heroes pajamas :) hahaha met a girl there named amanda cant really remember her face  she over heard me complaining about how i wasnt drunk enough if i still hate the taste of beer, and took it upon herself to make me a drink, it was effing amazing amanda is type of drunk girl you wanna be around in a sticky situation i'd bet she be clever enough to get us out. it was funny, but i got all depressed drunk  at the end cause i just then realized i wouldnt be working the last official day so i woulndt be able to say goodbye to everybody.got a wee bit emotional. nothing serious of course i was sloshed remember........ i would go over the night play by play but nobody really cares. :)


heres a letter to you:

hello love,
i miss you a great bit. i think of you constantly, mostly hoping that you are thinking of me. i lalalala love you, i do, its true. :p
take care without me, while i pretend that you once needed me, oh you know how i love to feel needed, thanks for making me feel special :)
-FINE
jess





i broke 2 toes on my left foot. :(



thats all
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so things are.........

well first off im extremely sick, but hiding it well, today i took a crap load of vicodin to just numb me, cause when i get pre-sick i get a little dramatic and when i get really sick i try to hide it to avoid all the over concern cause for some reason i crumble under attention.  doreen barley knows me i mean its been 6 months and she can tell better than my own mother when im not feeling well or when i'm depressed. ither shes psychic or shes very observant. she should be a pro interrogator i mean im good at hiding my sadness, but she picks it up on the spot.

the work season is almost done which makes me sad. but cant wait till the next one im excited not nervous for auditions :)


what else? humdilala....................... oh

i have recently delved inot the world of skating. i mean i've always like it and i had a board since forever, but ive never really tried at it , if you know what i mean. so now im getting really into it and its fun and scary and frustrating cause it like the only sport that i've had to work really hard at i mean everything has come really easily to me, iv just had no interest, this is different i mean in a way its second nature to me and in a way its like math. no matter how hard i try i dont get it. so im in the in between and im going to keep at it cause its a thrill when i actually get something down, like the ollie and manuals. so il keep you posted on that.

hmmmmlalalala.

no matter what i do or  how hard i try to get over the feelings i had in 06 i cant. theres a part of me deep down that doesnt want to let me let go. its the summer that my life changed.it was like my open door to the world and i step through it loved it and i accidently step out and the door shut and i got locked out. :(



ummmmmmm......

boy:  you smell good. stop it
boy: [puts his arm around my hips] i havent seen you in forever. how are you.
boy: [ while im reading comes up puts his head on my shoulders towards my neck, leans in close] what are you reading.
boy: i think im just going to change right in front of you now.
boy: (love song on the radio) crap now im going to get depressed [turns all the knobs down, while i follow turning them back up] now you are just gonna have to cheer me up. be yourself.
boy: come here. me: why? boy: just do it.[ i go up to him] smell me.
boy: [puts his ear phones in my ear.] listen..... this song reminds me of you.
boy: if you went missing id search everywhere for you till i find you.

shit....... life's not fair.
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Fright fest is fun. i like being in the office i hate working past midnight. but now people trust me more, and i find out a lot of things of which i cannot repeat :( but its fun in a way, keeping secrets.

ummmmmm im giving up for now on the boy..... its kinda not worth pursuing just cause hes not and im not. its whatev.


so about bout that weather.. sheesh so eeffing cold, i will never get used to winter. well i gotta shower
just came here to wake up i guess i finally get to be a character today, hopefull i wont be  lame one. bahhhh
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Dear life,

i know you are not supposed to be fair. but i also know that  you do let people catch a break every now and then.
so hear me out, i really really need you to cut me a break. i wont go into detail but i have a deep feeling that you know exactly what i am referring to.




love me( everyone else does),
jess
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Dear you,

i was made to love you. this is my purpose.
you are the piece of time i captured in a photo, lasting forever, always in my heart.
you are the non renewable resource that i need for survival.
i take as you willingly give yourself to me, knowing i care enough not to take too much.
it will never be enough just to say i love you. so i refuse to say it.
how i feel about you is how i feel about breathing.
i miss you even when you are close to me, because i fear of the times when you will not be.
you are the reason for my happiness.
you are the story behind my smile.
i was made to love you. this is my purpose.


FINE(forever is not enough),

Jess.

where im at:: on my bed
how im feeling:: depressed
what im cranking:: tunnel -the used

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this is a super cute song......
"Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
"

i'd be like hell yes. lol.
S-double-o-N



"Smother Me"


Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time

Let me be the one who calls you baby
The one who calls you baby

where im at:: on my bed
how im feeling:: awake
what im cranking:: smother me- the used

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 i say my style's clean, clean clean by any meansi got  my dream  held high i got my kicks on fly wit skinny jeans i wear em like a bad habit no matter wear i go i gotta have it i wear em skinny cause my ass fits apple bottoms' just an excuse for peoples with fat asses now all we need jeans for people who wear glasses. now isnt that attractive the next coming atraction, subtracted the brains of the

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